October 2010

K so this is an old experience but it just has given me so much strength that I really wanted to share it :) So in October 2010 I moved to Portland for school. I had just had surgery to have my gall bladder removed two weeks before and I knew absolutely no one in the city and had not even met my roommate. My parents came with me to help me move my stuff and were able to stay for a couple hours when we got there. I was super nervous to be on my own. After I dropped my parents off I just bawled as I drove back to my apartment. I just felt so scared and I was questioning why Heavenly Father wanted me in Oregon. I got home and cried a bit more. I just felt so homesick. I prayed and felt prompted to open up my scriptures. I opened up randomly to Isaiah 41 and went almost immediately to verse 10. It read "Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." I was just so comforted and knew things would be ok after that. Being in Portland ended up being a great experience and I grew a lot from it. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father answers our prayers and knows exactly what we need.

Alex

Earlier this month one of my sweetest high school friends died. It seems so unreal because the memory of her is still so real. Her name was Alex she was 20 years old and passed away in a car crash. The following week was hard I cried a ton during her viewing and just felt a huge sadness even though I knew I would see her again. Within the last couple months I have almost crashed twice. Both times the roads were slick and I just completely lost control of my car and it went spinning. As I was in line for her viewing I just kept trying to figure out why Heavenly Father had protected me and why she had had to leave us. I went home feeling pretty sad. The next morning was her funeral service I got ready and expected to have a lot of similar feeling through out the day as I had the night before. I got to the church though and just had this complete feeling of love and comfort. The service was great and it helped me to see more clearly that Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us and that my Heavenly Father loves me. I feel so blessed to have had Alex in my life and it helped me to see Heavenly Father puts those people in our lives for a reason. I am so grateful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I'm grateful for the knowledge it gives me. I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who loves and comforts me. I am so grateful for my friends and the influence that they have on me. I am grateful that Heavenly Father has perfect timing and that he has a plan for me even if I don't know what that is yet. And I am grateful for Alex who taught me what kind of person I want to be :)